PERU WAS AMAZING

it was such a humbling experience

the first day was amazing...after a long day of traveling we get to the church and the pastor is giving us a tour and me and bobby r thinking "no we just wanna go to sleep" then out of nowhere at midnite, 100 Peruvians jump out of nowhere singing dancing and shouting...it was so shocking to see that they had all this planned for us

Roberto or "hermanguildo" and I "Tirifilo" worked in the kitchen with 10 Peruvian older ladies but we called them "senoritas"

We sang songs, we danced, we learned so much spanish from them...it was so humbling

One night after we cleaned the kitchen, we were leaving the church and we saw these two senoritas Virginia and Sarah (ask me to see their picture) diggin thru the trash for food...thats how poor these people were working...we prepared food for the thousands and they didnt eat one bite, they had to dig thru trash for food...

the most moving part of the trip was the end....we were saying our goodbyes...the senorita Sarah came up to us and grabbed us and she said these exact words "Usted dos son mis hijos, yo tengo a un hijo que yo nunca he visto, y usted es siempre en mi corazón" or in ingles "You two are my sons, i have a son who i have never seen, and you are always in my heart"

it all started with a "game of catch"

one day i asked grandpa to have a catch with me outside
then it happened....
i saw it happen...
right before my eyes....

years later...
i loved her so much
i wanted to be her everything
my drive to succeed was her
but it ended cuz i throw with my hand and not a ball and net with a pocket
then it happened

one month later....
2 balls 2 strike count
curveball in the dirt
swung and missed badly
would have been a full count and wouldve gotten a fastball down the middle
would have crushed it
after i struck out
he got up
then it happened
i tried to hit after...
but it was too much...
i fell to my knees in the batter's box and they started to flow...
i could not play anymore

all of this is because of a simple game of catching, throwing, and hitting
it has caused me a lot of joy and happiness in my life
but the sorrow outweighs the joy
so no more

i wish i could take back those words i said.  i know they hurt and they hurt me saying them to you.  I am sorry.  U r ur own person and i should respect ur decisions no matter wat they may b and how much they hurt me.  I am sorry and i just want to still be with you even tho thats prob not gonna come true.  Im sorry, today was so good except for the end when i found out the ur wer hiding something from me. 

If I have kissed you once,
I have kissed you a thousand times.
Each morning as I arise,
each night as I drift to sleep.
each hour of the day,
each moment as it goes away.

The kisses shared between you and I,
have many times reached the sky.
as your lips part and anxiousness increases,
your heart pounds and breathing ceases.

My lips leap to yours, hungry for the taste,
sweetness drips from you to me.
as desire grows, my heart races,
inches apart seems miles waiting.

The miles increase as space shortens,
time appears to stand still.
so close yet so far, when? now, please now?

Once more, 1001,
make it two, so many more.
caressing ever caressing those tender lips,
each time as the first.

If I have kissed you 1000 times,
I would give them all away.
to make the dream a reality,
and kiss you once.

I'm sorry and im willing to move on and forget about this weekend and we can have a clean slate...today was one of the best days b4 8th pd and i would like to have some more here and there...im sorry 4give me...ur not what u think u r and both me and ur grandpa r so proud of how hard u work and ur amazing achievements cutie :) every1 should work half as hard as u and the world would be a better place.  Ur grandpa is so proud and is watching over u and is protecting you---u gotta know that he will always be proud, he has no reason not to be proud of you :)

im sorry

i wish i could take back those words i said.  i know they hurt and they hurt me saying them to you.  I am sorry.  U r ur own person and i should respect ur decisions no matter wat they may b and how much they hurt me.  I am sorry and i just want to still be with you even tho thats prob not gonna come true.  Im sorry, today was so good except for the end when i found out the ur wer hiding something from me. 

If I have kissed you once,
I have kissed you a thousand times.
Each morning as I arise,
each night as I drift to sleep.
each hour of the day,
each moment as it goes away.

The kisses shared between you and I,
have many times reached the sky.
as your lips part and anxiousness increases,
your heart pounds and breathing ceases.

My lips leap to yours, hungry for the taste,
sweetness drips from you to me.
as desire grows, my heart races,
inches apart seems miles waiting.

The miles increase as space shortens,
time appears to stand still.
so close yet so far, when? now, please now?

Once more, 1001,
make it two, so many more.
caressing ever caressing those tender lips,
each time as the first.

If I have kissed you 1000 times,
I would give them all away.
to make the dream a reality,
and kiss you once.

I'm sorry and im willing to move on and forget about this weekend and we can have a clean slate...today was one of the best days b4 8th pd and i would like to have some more here and there...im sorry 4give me...ur not what u think u r and both me and ur grandpa r